All men die. Not all men really live.
I wake up everyday thinking about whether I should abandon everyone here and go fight the russians....it's been eating me up inside since the war started.
Currently I think I might be more useful fighting the russian sympathizers here, where I know the land, the language, etc...rather than going to a country where I honestly can't tell a russian from a pol, or hungarian, or a slovak, etc.
I'm 45, not a military veteran, don't know any language other than english, I have a family and parents that I have to take care of and have a hip going bad on me...I'm logically not an asset to Ukrainain, but it absolutely tortures me to be in this state when the great war of our time is happening, I'm over here, sitting on my ass watching my country betray itself. If the ballon ever goes up, I'm going to take it out on the locals I know to be russian simps. If I can't fight them over there, I will fight them here.