I see why you have adopted that attitude - we're sometimes ridiculed or looked down on for our beliefs and made to feel as we're "nutty conspiracy theorists." I think the truth is that we choose to see things as they really are, not as we wish them to be.
That just means you are blessed- it also means youve passed the small gate and are walking the narrow road.
Many enter through the broad gate- remember, do not throw your pearls to pigs...
You've chosen to pursue truth despite the discomfort it brings, that's admirable.